Tuesday, August 26, 2008

ring the bells!

JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH MY VERY GOODEST & VERY OLDEST FRIEND, STEPH, AND SHE'S ENGAGED! I COULD FEEL HER BUBBLINESS OVER THE PHONE, EVEN THOUGH SHE WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF HER 12 HOUR SHIFT AT WORK & SHE WAS IN THE BATHROOM SO SHE COULD CALL ME. CAN'T WAIT TO BE HER MATRON OF HONOR...I TOLD HER I PROMISED I'D WEAR WHATEVER COLOR SHE WANTED...HOPEFULLY THIS WILL BE MOTIVATION TO SHAVE THE POUNDS WHEN THE BABY'S BORN. NO DATE YET...THEY'LL GET BACK TO US ON THAT. I CAN'T WAIT TO RETURN ALL THE SUPPORT & FAVORS SHE OFFERED WHEN WE GOT MARRIED...SHE WAS A BLESSING--SO AGREEABLE & EASY GOING...
CONGRATULATIONS, STEPH & PAT!
WE LOVE YOU!

p.s. i know goodest isn't really a word, but it was fitting

4 up

we are four appliances up from where we were yesterday. got home last night and "the dads" were working on hooking up our washer & dryer...my dad had re-ran a line for the stove already & then after phil left, dad took the front off of our dishwasher & beat on a stuck cylanoid (sp?) to get it hopping again. might i say that husbands are okay (sorry hon), but dads are AWESOME, especially when they have hay to put up and better things to do! now i can cook, wash dishes (okay, i know i could hand wash them--get off my back, but who wants to?), & do laundry! i'm living the dream...
(if said dream includes boxes in every room...oh, well--take what you can get!).

Monday, August 25, 2008

keeping you in the loop

we are moved (thank you family!) & surrounded by boxes at home (keep thinking to myself as i unpack them "& i need this why?"). wanted you all to know that we DO NOT have internet at the house right now & i CAN NOT check my hotmail at work, so anything you sent me friday night & after i HAVE NOT read. if you need to e-mail me do so to my work account (no forwards please) at jbeeler@scotland.k12.mo.us...same for mike except for mbeeler...
can't promise i'll get them b/c i don't know what this e-mail system filters out...
you also all probably have my cell phone number or, for goodness sakes, just drop by..most of my blog reading fans now live in the same town as me...come on over, unpack a box, make yourself useful!
okay...only 20 minutes to eat...got to scoot...lots to do today!

Friday, August 22, 2008

I...

I AM.....a homeowner(!), a confidante, a wife, a daughter, a friend, a teacher, a big sister & a little sister, and almost a mommy!
I WANT.....to slow down and hold time in my hand. I want to spend less time worrying about what others think and more time living life. I want living my faith to come easily to me.
I HAVE.....just enough energy to get me through the day...a fact I secretly hate.
I WISH I COULD......worry less & love more. I wish I could be more selfless by nature instead of by forced choice.
I HATE.......trying new things and going new places...I have a very nervous, inward personality and little things/changes make me very uncomfortable (so imagine how big ones make me feel!).
I FEAR.......that I won't actually be good at my new job because my heart is still with the kids at my old one.
I SEARCH.......for patience and often for a true purpose.
I REGRET.......hasty decisions, putting things off, and letting myself be so bashful.
I LOVE.........my baby. I LOVE that I get to go to work everyday with my husband. We truly do love each other enough to be okay working in the same buildings & its made both of us more sensitive to the trials of each others' jobs. I LOVE that things have not come easily for us--I think we appreciate them more after we've fought for them...moving home, buying a house, be settled in our careers, financial stability, and having a baby.
I ACHE FOR............children who I am unable to save...if I could take home all the children I've met who are being inappropriately cared for or emotionally abused I'd need a 10+ bedroom home already. I cry for them, I pray for them, & I fight for them. They are my passion.
I ALWAYS CRY...........when my feelings are truly hurt...which unfortunately is frequently. I cry when I am frustrated and when I am happy and I cry when someone makes a life-changing decision. I cry when a child slips through the cracks of an unkind world.
I AM NOT...........perfect...even though I waste a lot of time trying to appear as such to the outside world. Allow me to let you in...it's not easy for me to admit faults, weaknesses, or downfalls of myself or my family. When you ask, we'll always be 'great.' Although we're pretty lucky compared to many, please understand that its not always perfect.
I DANCE...............to slow songs and slow songs only...unless you catch me on Wednesday nights with my toddlers group at church...then anything goes!
I SING..............in the car, in the shower, in bed, when my feelings are hurt & when I'm angry. My favorite manipulation is to make up songs when I'm aggrevated at Mike that express my feelings--he really likes them.
I NEVER............leave home without putting on underpants (stop rolling your eyes...I don't!)
I RARELY..........do laundry until all six slots of sorters are full...why do I do that? (and might I point out I have to have LOTS of pairs of underpants because laundry is such an infrequent occurance in our house).
I CRY WHEN I WATCH............almost any movie because my rule is that I simply don't watch scary movies. My new favorite is Martian Child...if you haven't seen it you must borrow it from me.
I AM NOT ALWAYS.........as organized as I appear.
I HATE THAT...........every aspect of life seems to now have a built in political system--work, regular life, church...it's exhausting and unnecessary. Why can't we just be ourselves & trust that 'ourselves' is good enough?
I'M CONFUSED ABOUT..........God's choice of my placement at this time in my life...but I'm trying to go with the flow...
I NEED...........to feel like I am making a difference.
I SHOULD...........worry less, love more, and try to enjoy life. I should take a deep breath & relax.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

it is raining...

on rainy days i'm thankful that:
  • i'm not a walking mailman
  • i'm not a trashman
  • i'm not a regular classroom teacher who has to deal with rainy day recess inside
that's all...pretty heavy, i know! what are you thankful for on rainy days?

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

we...

had a horridly sad staff meeting yesterday, went to payton's funeral & then ran to ottumwa to buy those last minute things that you need to make a house a 'home',...got home at 10:00 & did laundry/picked up 'till 11:30...
up at 5:30...working a 12 hour day today,
a 14 hour day tomorrow,
& plan on packing/moving thursday, friday, & saturday.

don't expect blogs from us...& don't come looking for us...& for heaven's sake--please don't ask much from us unless its an emergency (we love you,
we do, but we are catching ourselves coming right now--give us a week or so!).

Saturday, August 16, 2008

long week already

whew...
mike & i's first official week of school is a jumbled mess already. the high school principal committed suicide thursday evening, so our week is being pushed back...not a big deal to us, but the poor kids are going to be upside down from the get go. monday, we meet with grief counselors to learn how to field questions from the kids & in the afternoon those who need to will stay to talk to the grief counselors. mike and i are being released to attend payton's funeral. tuesday we will have all of monday's originally planned meetings & the evening open house. wednesday, instead of school starting as planned, we will have tuesday's originally planned meetings & then mike and I have a 'new employees' picnic that evening. the students will come thursday & friday for 1/2 a day (dismissal at 1:05). poor kiddos...what a mess.

mike & i close on our house in memphis at 2:00 on thursday--yay!! don't let anyone tell you that buying a house is easy...although our next one (hopefully building) will be easier than this time around because we won't be 'first-timers'. i'm glad we had this experience to practice on & am glad we made the decision we did, otherwise i'm afraid instead of joy we'd be feeling overwhelmed & uncertainty. okay...off here...mike says we need to get to lancaster & finish up cleaning so everything is ready to move into...when did he get so smart (& such a slave driver!). have a great, cool saturday.

Friday, August 15, 2008

crib

grrr...mike & i had our crib all picked out. it was on sale a couple of months ago & we decided to go ahead & buy it. we got to the store & it was out of stock...no big deal, we got a raincheck. well...i've been checking for the last 2 1/2 weeks--call every mon, wed, & fri (when the trucks come in) to see if they've gotten a crib. no such luck. now my raincheck is expired but they say they'll honor it since it is their goof. however--they won't order one for me, they won't ship one from the website, and they won't transfer one from another store!! even wal-mart does that! so, for now, i continue to call--surely i'll frustrate someone enough that they'll do something! now when i call & say, "hi, i'm calling to see if you have a crib i'm waiting for in stock" they automatically say, "just a moment, mrs. beeler." ha, ha, ha--they know my name...there is probably a nasty post-it note on the service desk telephone that warns people about me (& i'm not rude by the way, just persistent)! if i were going to be in another town, i'd just buy it there if they'd honor my rain check (hey, its a $50 difference & i'm cheap!), but mike & i aren't planning on going anywhere soon...maybe to kc or des moines after we move just for fun, but not while we're in the middle of moving. that's okay--i don't mind calling...i get a little amused at the service workers when i call!
sidenote: i'm watching "a baby story" on tlc & this woman getting ready to have a baby chose a c-section because (and i quote): "the old way is primitive...women shouldn't have to go through that anymore." i have nothing against c-sections if they are necessary but COME ON! its not like anyone expected her to squat in a rice field!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

don't know why

i don't know why i thought of this but i just must say that i'm very thankful for our freezerful of "home grown" meats. my folks feed & butcher beef from their own farm so we know exactly what goes in them. i had a hamburger that was one of the pre-made freezer patties the other day at a function & i tell ya, it just wasn't good. our beef just tastes so much better! our folks also purchase hogs from people they know--sometimes vance's folks, sometimes henry, sometimes others...so we always have yummy pork sausage, ham, sidemeat, etc.
it's a blessing to not have to figure any meats but chicken or turkey into our grocery shopping & also so nice to have meat whose 'track record' i know! like i said...don't know why that came to me but it did...just thought i'd share!

Monday, August 11, 2008

real quickly...

okay, real quickly before i go to bed, here's the latest...
just checked my mail for the day & our loan agent e-mailed me (she's so sweet--i love getting her e-mails). APPRAISAL PASSED WITH FLYING COLORS! now we just have to lock in an interest rate...another scary thing i know nothing about. pretty much that means we just have to decide that today's rate is better that yesterday's & lock it in or choose to wait until tomorrow...i feel like i'm on the price is right! that journey starts tomorrow as i will get our first e-mail of the daily rates. good news is our interest is fixed for the duration of the loan so no fluctuation after i lock in.

our homeowner's insurance policy is being drawn up right now. we priced one company locally & then another...the first was $300 higher than the second & the second has better roof coverage! absolutely ridiculous! (but a blessing that we found the cheaper guy before we settled).

i worked like a madwoman in my classroom today & my back is paying for it. since mike has to be in memphis by 6:30 tomorrow morning to get the company vehicle & go to a meeting i believe i'm going to conserve fuel (and myself) and stay home (because i don't want to be at work at 6:30 & i don't want to get out the second vehicle...we're kind of loving this low fuel bill thing!). looks like moving could actually become a reality this weekend or next so i have plenty to keep myself busy! i'll hit the classroom again wednesday (hopefully with the help of a sister or two) & get most of it finished up. i actually made a lot of headway today--threw away tons of stuff from 1960-70 & got all my furniture arranged. a good feeling!

i'm off to bed...mike's tossing and turning, probably because i'm in the living room and the light is shining right into the bedroom. i hope he's very quiet when he gets up in the morning...if i was a good wife i'd get up and make him breakfast...we'll see!

Sunday, August 10, 2008

busy weekend!

whew...what another busy weekend we had. mike worked on the new house most of saturday while i hob-nobbed with his family at the beeler yard sale. mike had an unexpected blessing--he mowed the lawn & then while he was working on other projects around the house he heard a weed-eater start up. my cousin, rhett, who works for a lawn service company in lancaster was doing our new neighbor's house & he walked over and wacked our weeds real quick just out of the goodness of his heart. what a nice young man he's turning into! we came home saturday about 5 & had a quick supper, showers & bed at a decent time.

this morning we went to church. this is the 3rd sunday in a row that i haven't had any babies during sunday school in my nursery program--i won't give up however & i won't stop sitting there. i don't want to discourage parents by not being there the one sunday they need someone. the nursery table was full for lesson, though, during church, which is wonderful & proves that our service is meaningful and that the parents appreciate it. i've got a brochure ready to print and send out that will describe our program much better & i'm excited about the potential response from it. as much as i love serving our nursery curriculum it was nice to sit upstairs with my husband during sermon today...especially since the series is on marriage. we've had a disconnected few weeks because of new jobs, new house, baby coming, packing, etc...

this afternoon i went with the church board meeting with mike. it was an enlightening experience and i actually really enjoyed it. it opened my eyes to a lot of the reasonings behind the decisions that are made and why they are made. i'm getting to the point in my life where i'm not satisfied complaining about things that i don't work to change--don't complain if you don't want to do anything about it is what i'm pretty much feeling. so, that means getting more involved, more bold, and sharing more of my opinions--look out. after the board meeting mike & i stayed for a youth group/parents/sponsors supper. there was a nice turn-out, although i wish more people would have come...it is hard, though, especially on such a nice day. we have so many farmers in our community & today was a wonderful day for haying...my folks were in the field as well as many others, i'm sure.

so now, mike and i are watching army wives, chilling in our jammies, and working on the design for the new youth t-shirts. this week i'm getting in and getting down & dirty organizing my new classroom (which may mean less blogs...sorry dianna!). i'm also going to be working on getting a baby show ready for relay for life...roped my sisters into helping (that's what sisters are for). i think we're doing a pajama party theme & i'm actually kind of excited about it...i love to organize things. good night, dear friends (or good morning, as many of you won't read this until tomorrow!). have a wonderful day!

Friday, August 8, 2008

p.s.

forgot to say...
the house appraisal went very well. we've found homeowner's insurance that we can afford. we might close end of this week, beginning of next...
HALLELUJAH!

just updating

just got done watching the olympic opening ceremonies...never thought i'd care, but i guess mom pounding into my head when we were kids that it was very important to watch the olympics stuck. go figure!
worked all evening on getting things ready for another great year with our children's programming at the church. nursery brochures are done & lollipop lion postcards are addressed & ready to mail. very excited about this upcoming year & anxious to see what God has in store for us and our kiddos! i love being His tool to draw kids closer to Him...
my husband is sawing logs in bed...he never goes to bed before me but he's been there for over and hour & a half. he's not been feeling great--i made an appt. for him this coming thursday to just get an overall check-me-up at the dr...blood pressure, cholesterol, etc.
neither one of us in in the best physical condition possible & i'm not being critical of he any more than i...we work on eating right but why is eating wrong so much easier!? anyhow...until we get everything under control i hope rick can give him some suggestions and maybe even a script for awhile to get him back on his feet. thought it was just nyr jet lag & i guess it still could be, but i hate to see him feeling so crummy. he's been sleeping a lot & is still tired & just plain doesn't feel good. days like this when i'm grateful for highly schooled doctors that know more than me so i don't have to waste time & experiment to try & fix him!
we have the big Beeler yard sale tomorrow--i'm not taking anything down but we like to go and visit. family is to be treasured & we enjoy being with them. mike's also going to power wash & clorox the basement walls in the new house to kill any buggers that might be hanging around (thanks harry rider--you were right bree, but somehow he got mike on board!). too many fumes for me to help with that while i'm prego so i get excused per my husband's demand. i might work upstairs on some cleaning...depends on how the fumes waft, but i think i'll be able to open the windows. however, i won't have any energy to do anything unless i skitdoodle oodle. okay...
off to do devotion & go to bed. good night, sweet ones. lovely dreams to you!

Friday, August 1, 2008

nyr travel update

just talked to mike & the truck/trailer pulled into hays, kansas at 8 & the bus just got there. they are getting out to have a golden corral buffet so all the kids sleep well & don't have upset 'fast food' tummies. we do have relief drivers meeting the crew in kansas so travel should go pretty fast as they won't have to stop for our tired drivers to stretch & shake to stay awake. they've made good time so far, and if that continues they could get in earlier than usual...but we all know how that goes--its anyone's guess!

funny baby

okay, this might have been a total coincidence, but its more fun for me if i think it wasn't...
i was doing some work on my computer & was listening to a john mcmillan song (the 1st song on my blog now). it was turned down really low & i couldn't hear it so i hit the volume button & it turned up all the way on accident. the speaker is in the front of my computer on the little ledge that sits against my stomach. when the sound exploded all of the sudden the baby went wild. kick, kick, kick...
so, i turned the sound down--kicking stopped...turned it back up--kick, kick, kick!

like i said...i have no idea whether or not my bambino can hear (looked it up online & no one says the same thing...some say 20 wks, others say 30)...but it was kinda cool all the same. feel free to share your opinion of whether you think it was coincidence or not...you won't hurt my feelings.

home buying process update...

on the home front...
our appraisal is ordered (a requirement for our loan) & should be completed next week. the excellent news is that we did get the person we wanted to appraise it...if it appraised under the asking price the whole loan could go down the tubes & our seller tells us that this guy has already done a walk-through of the house & appraised it higher than the asking price...sara also assures us that this appraiser will be okay! what a blessing!...that's one of the last real hurdles we had to cross.
its looking like we're going to close around the 3rd week of august provided everything goes as planned.
please continue to pray that we see God's blessings as we go through this process & that the remainder of it goes smoothly.

nyr travel updates

talked to mike over an hour ago and the crew was getting ready to pray & then they were heading out of castle rock. the truck & trailer are going to pull out ahead of the bus & hopefully get home a little earlier so we can have the totes & stuff off the trailer before antsy parents get there to take their tired campers home. they did have a little trouble with the truck...had trouble getting it to kick out of 4-wheel drive, but a half-hour of work in castle rock got it fixed.
mike said packing up went excellent compared to how its gone some years. they were actually down the mountain earlier than usual which is positive, especially since they needed to work on the truck.
i found myself a little short with mike when he called...wednesday night he didn't call until 11 our time (10 his) so i was sleeping & not real coherent. so last night i kept myself awake until i finally gave up after midnight...so when he called ever so cheery today i was a little tense. i'm willing to dismiss my growls b/c i'm sure he was busy getting things packed up & getting the kids to settle for curfew, however let's just say i didn't get up real early this morning! anybody want to meet me at the church around 6 or so to unpack totes, tents, sleeping bags, freezers, chairs, tarps, & the like? no?...i'm shocked!