Wednesday, October 29, 2008

and her...

Pray also for Andrea, who is dealing with the in's & out's of one student's life and the moving away of another VERY loved student. What an emotionally wrecking week. My heart breaks for me a little & for her a lot...

I've also had both of those students, but Andrea had them both for 2 years. It's pretty rare to have a student for 2 years at Schuyler & then to have 2 kiddos that you love so much--oh, my...

Pray, pray, pray...

pray for her

I can't tell you her name, but God knows her story. She is a former student...you can see more on Andrea's blog. Pray for her.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

and how do you spell this?

Elle

or

Ellie

or

Ellee

or

Elly (Elley)

or some other way?

it has the long /e/ sound at the end.

and do you like elle cynthia? a friend at work popped it off today & its kinda sticking but i'm not entirely sold. somedays i wish i had a very decisive personality. i do like its meaning...noble, exalted, shining light.

all we need is a baby!

I can't wait any longer to post pictures of our increasingly cute nursery (even though it took me forever to transfer them to a jump drive & upload them at work b/c we still don't have internet at the house). Anyways...I am so in love with this room & what it represents that sometimes I just go in there and stand. I always want to be doing something in here...organizing, hanging pictures, folding clothes, what-have-ya. The rest of the house may be a disaster, but this room is o so ready for baby! Stop by anytime to see it (you'll just have to close your eyes at the rest of the mess in the house). I'll have to take a picture of my organized baby kitchen cabinet...Andrea got it all set up & it is filling up, too! What a blessed baby & blessed mommy & daddy we are to have everything we need before we even get started!


so we prematurely bought a couple of Christmas sleepers at herberger's the other day!
mike loves the reindeer feet on this one...



basket 'o hats...one in every fabric, shape, size, & gender. no cold heads at our house!



aunt laurnie made the bed and has it all snuggly & ready for baby!



focus on the rug in this picture...we love it & it is as soft & plush as it feels!



the carseat is all snuggled up & ready to go pick up baby from the hospital.
daddy now knows how to work it & get it in and out of the car...ducky is ready for the trip, too!
(daddy still has to learn how to get the base securely in the car, though)


have you ever seen so many rattles in all your life?...we'll have one for every place we go!!
what a lucky baby!


the dresser drawers aren't quite full yet but they are getting closer!



the changing table is the only thing that isn't dark wood in the nursery but i like it anyways...i found the cute canvas baskets for it as target & got a great price on them...they are super cute!



comforters aren't safe for the baby to sleep with, but it looks mighty cute on the quilt rack! i made hooks for it by safety pinning fabric ribbon to the top & looping it around the rack.



we bought this picture at the House of Jesus, after looking at it many times. we loooove it!



all we need now is a baby to use all this great stuff!



Have another check-up today...they are very routine & we are lucky to never have any trouble so I'm sure it will be quick & we'll be back in time for revival...Mike has to run video tonight so we better be back!

how do you spell it?

Xavier

or

Xzavier

I want to call him Zabe for short if it is a boy, so the Z makes sense to me but the name is different enough as it is...I'm having trouble putting an X & a Z in it. Need opinions...please share yours...

Monday, October 27, 2008

Lord, Send a Revival!

Our church is having a revival this week with Pastor Mark Scott. The topic is "Certain Truths for Uncertain Times" & boy is Mark a great speaker. For those of you who were church campers or NYR-goers...do you remember those speakers who were so passionate that one minute they were yelling & the next they were almost crying? That's Mark...
His speaking doesn't make you feel judged or wronged...but he makes you think, reflect & want to do better. Yesterday he talked about the fact that as Christians shouldn't we be willing to "give up the farm" to bring someone to Christ. Wow! Sometimes I wonder if we do the right thing when we draw someone to 'church' by other means...an activity, a kids program, etc...but then again, he's right. If that's all it takes to bring them to really know Christ, then isn't it worth it? Its not a trap...it's a reason...& sometimes that's all people really need...a reason to go.

So, if you didn't make it to church yesterday morning or to the revival last night...this is your personal invitation to come. If you are a Christian, you'll become a better one. If you are not sure about becoming a Christian, you'll gain a deeper understanding. If you are on the edge, you'll probably get pulled on over. If LCC is not your home church, that's okay--come anyways--its a community event & maybe you'll learn something that you can take home with you. If you don't have a home church then all the better reason to come!
It starts at 7, lasts only a little over an hour & is well worth your time. Childcare is provided by ADULTS, not teenagers for all kiddos 4th grade & under (although that's not set in stone...if you have a 5th grader its not like they're going to throw him out on the curb!). We have us a little singin' time & then the message...sweet & simple but you'll enjoy it. I'm challenging you...not judging you if you don't come, but challenging you to try!

See you there?

Thursday, October 23, 2008

a big ball of nothingness

wanna know something weird?...

...i always look up andrea's blog & click on her link of mine to get to my own. how bizarre.


have a great weekend, ya'll! we're off work tomorrow & still no internet at the house (although mr. beeler's diligently working on it!) so this is the last from me until monday!

god bless!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

and today's weather is...

NOT THAT COLD!

I know that I'm not a classroom teacher, but I have to laugh at the teachers (& kids) who are acting like it is sub zero already. I love the teachers here but they might be weenies when it comes to going outside for recess. Most of the grades went out for awhile, but not all of them. All I have to say is, what are ya gonna do when its January? Let them get outside now & get the germs & stink blown off of them. Keeping kids inside too early in the year only breeds more germs in your classroom & we all have enough sickness as it is. I've been keeping one of my windows cracked just to keep the germs flowing out. I know some of us are made of heartier stock than others but bundle up & get up & flowing! If I were a classroom teacher I would have definitely wanted to be outside a couple times today to get the kiddos moving & shaking (& myself)! Schuyler wrote a weather policy that said that they would go out unless it was down to a certain degree (can't remember what exactly) or raining. I think that's a good idea & might have to bring it up at Scotland...that way parents can be sure that their kids are getting some fresh air everyday that its not raining or sub-zero!
Kinda sounds like a negative post...not really knocking the Scotland teachers...just makes me giggle!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

your inspiration for the day

Okay teachers, church volunteers, school employees...the whole lot of you. Here's your weepy inspiration for the day...

WE ARE RESPONSIBLE
Ina Hughes


We are responsible
for children who put chocolate fingers everywhere,
who like to be tickled,
who stomp in puddles and ruin their new pants,
who sneak Popsicle's before dinner,
who erase holes in their math workbooks,
who can never find their shoes.

But we are also responsible for those who stare at photographers from
behind broken windows,
who can't bound down the street in a pair of sneakers,
who never "counted potatoes,"
who are born in places where we wouldn't be caught dead,
who live in an X-rated world.

We are responsible for children
who bring us sticky kisses
and fistfuls of dandelions,
who sleep with the dogs and bury goldfish,
who hug us in a hurry and forget their lunch money,
who cover themselves with Band-Aids and sing off key,
who squeeze toothpaste all over the sink,
who slurp their soup.

But we are also responsible for those who never get dessert,
who have no safe blanket to drag behind them,
who watch their parents watch them suffer,
who don't have rooms to clean up,
whose pictures aren't on anybody's dresser,
whose monsters are real.

We are responsible for children who spend
all their allowance before Tuesday,
who throw tantrums in the grocery store
and pick at their food,
who like ghost stories,
who shove dirty clothing under the bed,
and never rinse out the tub,
who get visits from the tooth fairy,
who don't like to be kissed in front of the carpool,
who squirm in church and scream on the phone,
whose tears sometimes make us laugh,
and whose smiles can make us cry.

And we are responsible for those whose
nightmares come in the daytime,
who will eat anything,
who have never seen a dentist,
who aren't spoiled by anybody,
who go to bed hungry and cry themselves to sleep,
who live and move, but have no being.

We are responsible for children who want to be carried
and for those who must,
for those we never give up on
for those who don't get a second chance.
For those we smother and
for those who will grab the hand of anybody kind
enough to offer it.

Monday, October 20, 2008

my child...

...has been either playing the drums or feng shuiing the uterus furniture all day...not sure which but i think he/she moved my bladder & my stomach because i can't decide which would feel better--peeing or throwing up.
only 6 weeks left...!

isn't she lovely?

The older she gets, the more I love and respect this kid...she's such a good girl...true to herself & what she believes. Mandie Replogle did a wonderful job on her senior pics and we all had a great girls day on Saturday.

Now presenting...Laurnie Beth:






(and yes, Andrea, I stole those right off your blog...he, he, he)

Friday, October 17, 2008

i'm tagged

I've been tagged by Corin.

Here are the rules to enjoy the fun:

1. Link to your tagger and list these rules on your blog.

2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog - some random, some weird.

3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blog.

4. Let them know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.


Okay here are my 7 facts/oddities.

1. I am a nervous wreck about something probably 95% of the time. I don't show it on the outside--I usually appear calm and cool, but in reality I'm constantly thinking about whether I'm fitting in, what I'm saying, how I look, etc...I'm rarely truly comfortable just being 'me.' I'm not even sure of who the 'real me' is. Because of this I have a hard time making true friends.

2. I really, truly love my husband and think its sad that some women can't say that. Even when I can't stand to look at him, I love him. AND...I often call him Big Daddy...not because of anything personal other than I started saying it one day & can't stop.

3. I'm already in love with my baby & worried about the type of parent I will be.

4. 99% of the time I still run to my mommy and daddy when I need help.

5. I'm not the best Christian I can be, but I really try.

6. On any given day, there are at least 5 students at the school that I would take home and raise because I know they need me. And I don't think I'd ever look back.

7. I HATE my house been messy, cluttered, and dirty...you wouldn't know it by looking but when you're there please know that I hate it, too!

Some of you may have already been tagged but I don't have very many people on my blogroll so just go with it, okay?...

1. Bree Shaw
2. Mikey
3. Erin Tallman
4. Amee Jones
5. Bob Young
6. Jennifer Jackson
7. Andrea (okay, I ran out of people!...I know you've already been tagged)

mikey & his favorite lady...

last night andrea had to go to the school board meeting & vance was at soccer practice. there was about a 25 minute gap where they needed somewhere for emma to chill so she didn't have to hang out in the cold so andrea dropped her by. she'd been to buddy's to eat, so andrea brought her jammies & threw her in the tub b/c she smelled like a fried ashtray. andrea left & emma played a bit. i went in to wash her, then decided that the idea of stirring the chili sounded easier than getting on my knees so i switched places with mike (he usually bathes the kids when they are at our house anyways). emma got out, vance got there...nothing else was said about bathtime.
until...
last night we're laying in bed joking about something & out of the blue mike says, "when emma was washing up in the tub she told me she had to wash her boobies." a small pause followed from him while i guffawed & laughed (have you seen her mom?...that child doesn't stand a chance at a blessed chest). then mike says in a serious tone, "i think its about time that i stop helping emma with her baths..."

maybe he's right...i'll let him out with this girl b/c she's not ours but if we have a daughter nothing will get him off the hook...not even boobies!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

oh, what a beautiful wednesday!

okay, that title? its sarcastic!

my wednesday is blah. let me explain...
as a teacher you see those students everyday who are usually squirrly, but oddly loveable all at the same time. & one day you walk in and the ornery student is sitting quietly, head on the table, eyes dazed. you're amazed & you jokingly ask the classroom teacher if she passed out valium this morning. nope...the little boy's mommy had another baby last night so his whole routine is messed up--had to stay with his aunt, breakfast was forgotten, etc...
sooo, when the class goes to the front to sit in their circle you let the little boy sit on your lap. at first he is rigid & then he relaxes & lays his head back against your neck. then he turns his face into your neck & wraps his little boy arms around you. "ah..you think to yourself. he'll be asleep in minutes." & you hope to yourself that if this were your child someone would be holding him, too. then, just as you think his eyes are shutting & you've done the right thing by showing him some extra love, his tiny, sweet little body heaves. you pull him up, thinking it was a cough. his eyes are wide & he does it again...suddenly you are in super teacher mode. 8 months pregnant you get up in record time & carry/throw the child towards the trash can. now all you can think about are the germs circulating your body...
the classroom teacher takes him to the nurse while you pretend to teach reading...
a few minutes later you exit the kindergarten...

you go back to your quiet, peaceful room where you only have two students for the next hour & a half. gentle, sweet, compliant students. but today, of course, on this dreary wednesday, today is the day one of them picks to throw a screaming, stopping, crying, mad-fit. behaviors you never dreamed this child possesses come to the surface. and so, for the next hour & 23 minutes you remind the student that she has choices...of course, she doesn't make the right choice until 3 minutes are left of class. so for 1 hour & 20 minutes you have taught around her...piling her homework in a neat little stack with instructions to home on how to complete it.

& then it's lunchtime...and you realize...heaven help me, is it only lunchtime?

Monday, October 13, 2008

showered with love

okay...i had 3 paragraphs written out about how wonderful my baby shower was on saturday, but then i decided that a picture is worth 1000 words so i'll post all about it tomorrow when i can put pictures on. that'll be way more fun!!

i do want to say thank you to everyone who came...i know its a sacrifice to give up your saturday morning to watch someone else open gifts but i appreciate each & every one of you that was there!

thank you to:
  • andrea, who knows just what to do to make things personal to me...the books, the cabinent for the kitchen...things no one else would have thought of but that you always see.
  • laurnie, who happily focuses all her energy on me & makes me feel like the star of the show...who knows just when to joke & just when to be serious.
  • kea...who organizes with her eyes closed & doesn't complain even when i know she's dead at the end of it all.
you 3 are awesome party throwers! i had a blast & mike and i can't stop talking with each other about how truly blessed we are...

Thursday, October 9, 2008

small town rednecks...

I got this in an e-mail forward & it was too cute (and true) not to pass on. Funny to realize that our small town values are considered "redneck living" to many people...Enjoy!

You might be a redneck if: It never occurred to you to be offended by the phrase, "One nation, under God."

You might be a redneck if: You've never protested about seeing the 10 Commandments posted in public places.

You might be a redneck if: You still say Christmas instead of Winter Festival.

You might be a redneck if: You bow your head when someone prays.

You might be a redneck if: You stand and place your hand over your heart when they play the National Anthem.

You might be a redneck if: You treat our armed forces veterans with great respect and always have.

You might be a redneck if: You've never burned an American flag out of disrespect and never intend to.

You might be a redneck it: You know what you believe and you aren't afraid to say so, no matter who is listening.

You might be a redneck if: You respect your elders and raised your kids to do the same.

You might be a redneck if: You'd give your last dollar to a friend.

If this is being a redneck then let me be the first to say I'm pretty proud to be one!

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

weekend away & more

mike & i had a terrific weekend in Tan-Tar-A at the Osage Beach. we were both sent on a technology conference--he as the tech guy & me as the teacher representative (hey, it saved them in room costs!). beautiful room, beautiful lake front view with a walk out patio, beautiful, comfy double beds (ok...they were a little small--we could have each had our own but the snuggle factor worked for us). we had meetings monday & tuesday--only one the same & the rest of the time separate, but i feel like i learned so much & that just maybe my smartboard isn't smarter than me! meetings were over monday by 5, so we went to the outlet mall. we had another employee from the school with us but she shopped for her kids while we wandered the mall. got a couple more maternity things--i think i have enough to get me through these last 2 chilly months. we also picked up a couple of darling but not necessary outfits for the bambino at carter's (i'm starting to love the carter's outlets!). mikey bought a 'man's' apron so he doesn't have to wear my too small one when he's frying bacon & stuff...we got a couple other little things--nothing too exciting but we had fun & the weather was gorgeous. tuesday we were done & in the van by 1:30, so we were home (& me showered) by 5:00. i took a short siesta & then we worked upstairs on unpacking, hanging things, organizing, etc. our bedroom has been neglected b/c its 'out of sight, out of mind' but i know people are going to want to come by after the shower this saturday & see the house & i want to have a house worthy of showing off! i think we're keeping the kids tomorrow evening so i'm going to have them sort through their toys at our house & then we are going to move them up to our room & reorganize them. right now they are in the nursery, but its quickly filling up, so they are getting relocated. our room is nice & big to play in, though, or they can carry what they want to play with downstairs. not ideal, but liveable... after we get their toys moved we can go get the changing table that's hanging out in phil & sara's garage & get it in the nursery (hopefully friday). then maybe i can get everything set the way i want it so that its nice & tidy to show off on saturday... speaking of saturday...i'm getting really excited about the shower! it seems surreal that i'm this close to delivery...everyone thinks i'm all calm & cool & one of those 'born to be mama' types & in some ways i am, but in other ways i feel totally unprepared & naive. tell me this is normal... enough rambling for now...better finish lunch & get ready for my next group of youngsters! 

Friday, October 3, 2008

colby & emma

it's been forever and a day since i've posted anything about my niece & nephew. in the hubbub of things i've neglected talking about them... we've gotten to see them so much more since we've moved home & we're soooo grateful. its fun to walk down the street to their soccer games or catch up with them when they stop by or when we run out to the new house.
the last couple of times we've had emma at the house it seems like she's around for supper...this wednesday she was there & when she prayed she prayed that dear God would make us a boy & a girl baby so we'd have 2 to play with--1 of each! the time before when she was praying before supper she prayed (all on her own, with no prompting--we hadn't even been talking about it) "Dear Dod, pwease bwess the baby in GiGi's tummy & wet it not hurt when it tums out." AMEN, SISTER!
mister colby is turning into an all boy, boy! however...wednesday night when he got to Sonlight for some reason he came up to where i was
sitting and threw his arm around me. what a cowboy! he's the kind of kid that shows love sparingly so when he does you really appreciate it.
just remembered that i made a disk for andrea of the kids' soccer pics that we've been taking & the disk is in my purse...now i have pics to share! (i can't wait until we get the interent!). enjoy...


hustle, hustle!



her favorite spot...goalie!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

prayer

Please pray for Bree Shaw...she had a hysterectomy today. The plan was to leave both ovaries but the best laid plans always go awry. They had to take one & ended up finding & removing 2 tumors that they did not know were there. Prayfor her pain & her recovery, but more than anything pray for her peace of mind as they test the tumors & she gets results.

Sidenote: I have 1 week's worth of evening meals set up to take to Bree's house. If I haven't hit you up & you would like to do a freezer meal for her to help stock her freezer for those evenings in the couple of week's following recovery that she just doesn't have it in her to cook, please contact me & I'll hook you up with ideas of what their family likes (& doesn't). (jennbeeler@hotmail.com or 660.216.8252). You can also holler at Andrea!
GOD BLESS!

the heart of the matter...

I....
  • am a teacher who works full time & will take her kids to a babysitter because this is the field that God has called me to. I make a difference in the lives of other children besides just my own. I love my kids enough to give them the freedom to be in the hands of others & I trust others enough to love and care for my kids. THIS IS NOT AN EASY CHOICE & is just as much a sacrifice on my part as staying at home is to others.
  • am a women who respects that God has gifted others with the talents that I do not possess, one of these being medical smarts. I do not run to the doctor for every sniffle or pain--however, I trust that my doctor is more capable of assisting me in the birth and care of my baby & myself than I am.
  • am a wife who too often doesn't realize the gift of a husband that I've been given. He's gone with to every OB appointment, except one when he was out of town, he grocery shops, cooks, cleans & takes care of all the manly things like the lawn, garbage, cars, etc. He does things I just plain don't want to do & stands by my side to help me make difficult decisions. He supports me when I feel led by God to do something & never tears me down...I wish I could always say the same of myself in regards to him.
  • am a mommy who dreams the best for her baby. I will be the best parent I can be. I will make mistakes, I will not be perfect, but I will try. I will let others love & care for my baby because I know the joy a baby brings. I've been blessed to have my hands & hearts in the lives of many children who have made a difference to me.
  • am a sister who is grateful to have 2 such wonderful, caring people in my life. I rely on them & they rely on me. We are intertwined with a bond that cannot be broken. We may not always understand each other--we may not always agree with each other--but we always love each other. Thank you Lord for my sister blessings.
  • am a daughter who feels loved 100% of the time. I am not the result of perfect parents, but I am the result of a happy & loved upbringing. We were not always privileged, but we were cared for & raised with modest but wholesome values. We often had to find our own way, which was our parents' way of helping us grow. I am also the daughter of a Godly father, who always loves & remembers me, even when I stumble & fall.
  • am a servant. When I choose an area to serve in I do it with all my heart and for the right reasons. I strive to bring others closer to Christ. I am not a perfect person who always makes perfect, Godly choices, but I try. I am in need of forgiveness just like everyone else.
  • I am not defending myself or my actions. I am explaining my life choices & thanking my Maker for my blessings. I am simply showing you my pulse...the heart of all that really matters.